So, here I am, it’s 3 am and fear is playing its game with me again.

Tears. Worry. Anxiety.

Powerlessness presses the air from my lungs.

My puppy dog mind has diarrhoea, I think to myself.

The reframe brings some relief. I imagine a ‘loose’ pooping puppy making a heck of a mess in my mind…

I sit on the side of the bed and let the tears flow.

It’s ok. It’s ok. You’re safe. We’ve got you.

“Really?” I say to the voices I’ve practised imagining in my head. “Because, I’ve got to say it feels FAR from ok and I SO don’t feel safe!

Do you understand the concept of money running out? No steady income? And not knowing what I should be doing every moment of the day to allow myself to align with the abundance I seek? And the exhaustion of constantly second-guessing myself?

Do you actually KNOW what that’s like?”

I all but spit the words out to the Dream Team of my mind’s creating...

Fortunately, they can cope.

“Not really, no, Amanda. You have us there. But that’s because we’re here, where all your abundance IS.

We can’t feel your fear because we know that it’s all working out for you.

We’ve got every desire boxed off. Truly.

Your every dream come true. It’s all here.

We’re bending over backwards to bring you to it.

But you’ve got to make your way here.

There’s no bringing it to you, as you know…”